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Thursday Flakes: Signing Day & Struggling With Loss

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Even the grieving process is inhibited by our current state of affairs

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It has been over a month since I received the order from work to remain at home due to the novel coronavirus pandemic outbreak within the United States. The weekend prior to that order my husband was back in Nebraska visiting his family. Unconnected to the pandemic, his grandmother had become seriously ill a few days prior to his trip and was taken to the hospital. Due to the fact he had flown on a plane to get there, he understandably was unable to visit her in the hospital. At the time it seemed hopeful she would make a full recovery. As fate would have it, my husband was not able to visit his grandmother and see her in person one final time before she passed away this week on Monday morning.

I cannot help but be frustrated by the circumstances and the sheer hopelessness of the present predicament we all find ourselves in. How are we supposed to be human under the present condition we all find ourselves forced into? In our Bangs & Dags podcast over the holiday period, Patrick, Nate, and I discussed our favorite sporting events we have ever attended. One of the games I mentioned was one which I was able to introduce my then boyfriend (and just two short weeks later my fiance) to my grandmother, and in fact my last remaining grandparent still living. That was the last time I saw her as she passed away a little over a month later. I still look back on that fortunate blizzard that left us stranded in Michigan an extra 24 hours as one of those special blessings you luck into in life by unseen fate, but it now feels almost tainted by an unfair and cruel twist when his own opportunity with his grandmother was denied him. The nonsensical nature of fate is truly baffling in its barbarism.

As if that wasn’t enough of an injustice, for all practical intents and purposes we will be unable to attend her burial as it will be happening before we are readily able to leave DC to attend. Due to our risk of exposure to the virus, we remain too high of a health liability to the rest of his family in attending the upcoming burial service. So we will be forced to wait for the memorial service that will be held at a later date once all of this has lifted. Make no mistake about it, that doesn’t make it alright having to miss the burial whether it is the smart choice for health concerns or not, and it is incredibly frustrating to have to face that reality while trying to help your spouse cope with his loss.

As if that isn’t enough, there is honestly more weighing me down this week alone. Someone I know from a former job I worked here in DC is in the hospital with Covid-19, and another person I look fondly up to received a grim prognosis for other health issues. Yesterday also marked two years since one of my aunts took her own life after succumbing to years of depression and addiction issues.

Despite all of this, life carries on... somehow. “Quoth the Raven ‘Nevermore.’” At a seemingly far too distant point from now, some level of normality must return and we can return to the human condition we all have grown up with and come to depend on. The place where families can be with a loved one in their final moments and collectively grieve together in the social setting humans are conditioned by nature to find fulfillment within. Until that day finally comes again, we are left to the selfless sacrifice and stunning humanity of caregivers who stay late after they finish their dangerous day’s work to arrange facetime/skype/zoom calls with our sick loved ones for us, and to kind gestures of delivery of needed goods to those unable to fully provide for themselves in this dangerous time. But for now the struggle for how to cope with grief in this temporary new world we find ourselves living in remains.

Huskers News

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Around the Internet

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Beagle Corner

In some light-hearted news, our Beagle turned 2 years old this past Saturday. We do manage to get out and take (socially distanced) walks with her everyday still which is nice. She greatly enjoys having us both home all day and is a needed presence for us as well.