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Corn Flakes: Your Heart and Husker Football

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I go to cardio rehab three times a week now. I think I have to do this for the next, oh, six months. It's rather a pain in the ass, but I understand the need. It's not very difficult - they me hook up a portable heart monitor then I alternate between a treadmill, a stationary bike, and a stepping exercise as they monitor my heart rate, apparently looking for any anomalies and making sure that I'm progressing in my goal of getting stronger.

Along with the physical therapy comes education. Everyone gets to learn about exercise and diet, which has included learning how to read ingredient labels on food packaging.

Yesterday we watched a video about the emotional aspects of heart disease.


In the section on anger, the subject of the video was holding a bag of Dunkin Donuts while having an argument with his wife. It wasn't completely obvious that the Dunkin Donuts bag was the cause, but given what I know now about the evils of fast food, it's clear the old lady wasn't too happy with his choice of diet.

The other implication was obvious. Am I angry that this happened to me? Yes, but not as angry as I am disappointed. I feel like my body has let me down. It's been a pretty good body up to this point so what the hell, body?

The same goes for Mike Riley and his results so far. I'm not angry as about a 2-4 record as I am disappointed. Husker football has been excellent up to this point in my life. What the hell, Husker football?


They put a stent in my heart. I have to take medication. Check that, I have to remember to take medication. I may have to take medication for this for the rest of my life. Up to this point, I had never even broken a bone or been in the hospital for anything. Despite my cardiologist telling me that only one in four or one in five people survive what I've been through, I'm bound and determined that everything will be as normal as it was before.

I am lying to myself. There are some things I can make better, but I will never be the same.

Nebraska is not a very good football team right now. That may apply to only this season, or it may apply for the duration of Mike Riley's time as head coach. We don't know what's going to happen, but I keep watching these games as if some switch is going to get turned on with our players and they'll suddenly be one of the best defenses/offenses in the nation.

They have the talent, right? Right?

I haven't figured out where I'm at with this. I'm in denial. I'm not in denial. I don't know.

Depression and Anxiety

The lady who played the part of "depressed lady in heart rehab video" was so damned depressing I was depressed after watching it. Depression plays a big part in your recovery from a serious life event. You spend time wondering "Why Me?" - why are most of the people in my cardio rehab sessions much older than I am?

Shouldn't this have happened ten years from now? Why were there no warning signs? Why didn't any of my earlier physicals show that there was a potential for such a severe heart problem?

Why the hell did Wisconsin's kicker make that second field goal? Why did Tommy Armstrong throw that damned interception against Miami? Why the blasted shit can't our secondary turn around and look for the ball?

Damn. This season is depressing. I'm not going to stop watching, though, because of hope.

Lose that and I don't know what happens.

Reviews, Previews, CHAOS CHAOS CHAOS

Maryland Terps start coaching carousel by firing Randy Edsall
Anderson bungled every angle—letting the news leak out, not communicating and then hiding when the lights got bright. His lack of communication with Edsall included not calling him for nearly eight hours after the news was released.

Steve Spurrier is retiring now as South Carolina's head coach, per multiple reports -
One of the best coaches and best quotes in college football history won't be on the sidelines much longer.

The 14 best Steve Spurrier quotes of now and then -
Spurrier has provided plenty of classic comments over the years.

Florida starting QB Will Grier suspended for 'at least' 2015 due to PEDs, per reports -
Bad news for the Gators.

Will Grier's suspended for an entire calendar year, but it's even worse than that -
We asked people at a few athletic departments about three different issues related to the Florida Gators quarterback.

Sarkisian Terminated as USC Football Coach - USC Trojans
Here is a statement from USC athletic director Pat Haden:

Steve Sarkisian fired as USC football coach, has checked into a treatment facility -
The rocky Sarkisian tenure is over at USC.

Exclusive: Jim Harbaugh Responds to Mark Dantonio's "Open Letter" - Maize n Brew
"What's YOUR deal?"

Gary Andersen, Oregon State Beavers coach, wants to learn if players 'really want to be in this fight': Monday press conference highlights |

"It's time to sit down, put on our big-boy pants as coaches and as players and look each other in the mirror and make sure that we really want to be in this fight," Andersen said. "I (do). I'm gonna throw those haymakers and (have) seven more weeks of throwing them, and I hope we can find it will be eight more weeks.

Everybody has to make the same speeches when they take over a program.

Report: Texas interim AD Mike Perrin altered course on Nike apparel negotiations - Burnt Orange Nation

Instead of forcing the industry giant into a bidding war, Steve Patterson's replacement likely won't even hear pitches from Under Armour or Adidas.

Sounds like a dumbass in the other direction to me.

Football show actually Father Ryan teens in a basement
A Nashville-based college football show lands some of the SEC’s most insightful media members every Saturday morning. What the guests don't know is they’re talking to a 15-year-old broadcasting from his parents’ basement.

Bret Bielema appears to instigate penalty on Alabama player, flops and celebrates -
Just another day in the life of BERT.


Mike Riley Focuses on The Good Stuff | Hail Varsity
A mostly-complete list of Riley’s good things: Sam Foltz’s punting, Drew Brown’s kickoffs, the zero turnovers and zero sacks allowed against Wisconsin and a third-down conversion percentage (44.44) for the Huskers’ offense last week that was the best in the past four games.

Riley Sees the Light; So Do Gangwish, Pierson-El - - Nebraska Athletics Official Web Site
The most powerful message from Monday's weekly press conference was understanding again how football relates to life.

Winning a game, not B10 West, is Huskers' immediate concern | College Football
LINCOLN, Neb. (AP) — At least Mike Riley still has his sense of humor.

Collins: Ex-coach contact positive, overblown by ex-Huskers - Big Red Today Blog
In a conversation with the World-Herald on Sunday night, Kaczenski — who coached Nebraska's line from 2012 to 2014 — confirmed he'd been in contact with some of his ex-players, but that the contact was "all positive." Kaczenski, who moved out of Nebraska in August, now lives near South Bend, Indiana — home of his alma mater, Notre Dame — and attends Fighting Irish games.

Then There's This

Star Wars Battlefront is the dad rock of video games | The Verge

I considered catching up on the life-consuming first-person shooter Destiny over the weekend, but tried the beta for Star Wars Battlefront and suddenly it was Monday morning.

I've played the beta. I love it. It's not complicated (although some of the controls are frustrating). If Nebraska keeps losing, we might just turn CN into a gamer's web site. The release of Fallout 4 is just around the corner, eh?

Twitter Removes Accounts Over Sharing of Sports Videos - The New York Times
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